Day 14, 15 & 16

Ok, behind, again. I know. But cut me a little slack, things have been hectic.:)

So, Day 14 - To Guard the Castle from Harm

So, you know how most women believe the men to be the protector, the guardian...your brave when you fear and your laughter when you cry? You know, your rock? Well..that is what god believes the women to be to her home and her family.

It is much easier said than done though, for sure. Me? I have to sit on the side of the bed furthest from the door in case of intruders, and the one who won't even attempt a scary movie because of the nightmares it may set forth. Yea, that's me. The wimp. So, to be the protector of my family, that's a big deal. Scary. What if I fail? What if I fail at protecting those I love most, and home my loved ones reside?

But then there is that thing. That thing that us women have the sets us apart from any man. Woman's intuition. Some call it mothers instincts, others may call it a separate type of courage. Maybe both. A strength no man will ever know, like that is why God chose us to endure Labor and not man. And that may be true.

Think back to when you found out you were pregnant and the feeling you got when the baby kicked. Or that magical moment when you heard it's heartbeat for the first time or saw your first sonogram. Then all that pain to push out this human, that you and your husband created, together. And as soon as he/she is placed in your arms all the pain, all that FEAR, is gone. Fear of failing now is just joy and success.

Like god programmed us to be that strong, you know? And just like harboring a child for 9 months and giving birth, protective instincts just comes, naturally. And you may be filled with fear about failing or what could happen, but is ever about failing yourself? No, its always about fear of failing those you love most. At least for me anyway, and I am sure that is the same for most other wives and mothers. Who wants to let their kids down, ever? Not me. So whether its protecting them from harm and strangers and bad guys, or from the common cold. It just comes to us. Like when your a mom of newborn and all the baby has to do is let a little whimper or sigh out and your awake like a bat out of hell. Instinct. Intuition. Or in other words, God. So in times of need and despair, and fear, and harm, look to god and he will help you protect and guard. All the rest, will just come naturally :).

Knowing when to show a little tough love, or knowing when you to back off. Showing them right from wrong and teaching them and talking with them. These are all things we can do as wives and mothers to guard our home and the ones we love. The keeper of the home.

Day 15 - To celebrate your strengths, trusting God with your life

Wow. To celebrate your strengths, trusting God with your life.

All of us are always so quick to focus on the bad of those around us, never even questioning whether we are wrong or not. But what about all those good things about them, their strengths. Like my husband has a horrible habit of leaving the bathroom a MESS after taking a shower and shaving and it drives me mad sometimes. Especially when I just cleaned it. But he also is great at vacuuming. He hardly ever changes skyler's diaper and sometimes it erks me so much I fight with him about it, but what about the fun playful things he does with the kids when I need a break? See? There is always a balance, a strength, to the negatives.

And in those times where it isn't as simple as a dirty bathroom or a smelly diaper, look to God to make you feel better and remind of you those strengths.

It's that simple. We are human and none of us are perfect. Put your faith in the Lord, and during difficult times he will be there to listen and to guide.

Day 16 - To love you without expectation, planting my days with hope.

I tend to always get in these modes of, I wish we had this, or I wish I could do that, etc, etc...But what God has begun to teach me is that it isn't always about what could be or how you want things to bed, but what they are about now.

Every year, when tax time comes around, I am always expecting to have money left over to finally take a family vacation. A time to get away, and forget about all the stresses going on in our life at that time and just enjoy time together, as a family. I mean, who doesn't want that!? Maybe a nice cruise, a trip to disney world or to another country. But every year, when tax time comes, we always have bills to pay, and in that end result, there is never enough left over to take that vacation. First I get sad and dissapointed, then I get mad and frusterated that we will never catch up financially, and then after ranting about it for a few days, I finally accept it. But here is the kicker...


It was never about that trip. Sure I was hopeful and I still am, but now I have perspective. At least we got the money to pay those bills. God didn't think at that time that trip was necessary. He gave us what we needed to pay off our financial burdens and a little extra to maybe take the kids the zoo or to see the circus, or go on a nice day trip to block island. Whatever it was that we used the extra cash for, we still got that time together, as a family. It's not about looking at your life and seeing how it could be better, it's about seeing the blessings god has given you now, and embracing them.


God never said he didn't want you to hope and have faith. That is not what I am saying at all. Hope away, there is nothing wrong with hoping and dreaming. Hey, who says we ever stop anyway. Just like Love, it beats within us. But be realistic and positive. Understand God loves us and just because you don't get that vacation, or that new car or new home, doesn't mean you don't deserve it and doesn't mean God doesn't think you deserve, it just isn't the right time yet.


So the next time your wishing for a miracle or hoping for a better change in your life, pray. It may no happen tomorrow, it may not happen in a year, it may not happen in 10 years, but never give up on God. Just like none of us ever give up hoping and wishing and dreaming. Faith is a beautiful thing, it is what makes us tick. Embrace it, and embrace God, and your life will prosper, no matter what you have or don't have.


Till next time bloggers, and God Bless