Day 12 - To walk through this life with you

You know when your walking down the pathway in the park, and past by that old bench that must have been sitting there for ages, and on that bench, just as it has aged for years, there is an old couple in their 80's, holding hands and smiling, looking like they are just as in love in that moment as they were when they first met.

That thing when, when you see it, you sigh and say, THAT'S what I want.

Then you continue walking, staring back at them, wondering, what did they do their entire marriage to still be that in love. 'Cuz whatever their secret is, I want to know.

I remember when Josh & I separated for some time. He was a wreck, and granted at the time I had no sympathy, I knew he was hurting. Well, he ended up getting really sick while talking to me one night during that separation and began to have a hard time breathing. Next I knew I was getting in the car and going to the emergency room. 1 hour ago I couldn't stand him and just wanted him off the phone, now I am worried sick, just wanting and hoping for him to get better. Guilt started to set in wondering if this was all my fault.

Then, as I walked in and saw him lying there in the stretcher in his state, I began to die a little inside. I knew, even though at that time I thought we would never be together again, I had to be there for him. Be strong for him and let him know, no matter what, I wasn't leaving his side. He was still my husband and I didn't want him to be alone.

It's amazing how things can make you rethink all your decisions. And now, with the perspective of God on my heart and in my mind, those "things" become even more apparent. No matter how much I disliked him during this time, I still loved him. How and why after all the mistakes he had made only God knows, but I did.

Ecclesiates 4:9-10 - Two are better than one, because they  have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow, but woe to him that is alone when he falleth, for he hath not another to help him up.

The challenge? If your husband is sick, troubled or weary be a companion that remains by his side. And if not? If all is going well in your lives? Praise God for the blessings upon you.

"Dear God, thank you for all the blessings I have in my life. Thank you for my husband, who is healthy and strong and continuing to try to be a good leader for our family. I pray that you continue to guide him and give him the courage and wisdom he needs on days he is struggling, and I praise you for the days where he loves us as you love us, and respects your word through actions in our home. In Jesus name I pray, Amen."